Toxic.

I have no admiration for people who do not care about their bodies and overall health, people who are capable but lazy. An enormously large number of people abuse their health. Dabbling in mischievous things here and there is fine, I feel one should be recreational, it is pleasurable and a great way to calm down from regular regime as well as open your mind, so long as it is in moderation and not excess. Everyday abuse is simply vile and toxic. It does no good for your overall bodily health, physical and mental.

Try and change for the better, do it for you. Try to be the best version of yourself that you can be, it is never too late for self-improvement. Find help, you do not need to walk alone, unless you are strong enough to do so.

In the beginning changing your ways may be hard but in the end it will be worth it. Having improved fitness, body confidence, breathing easier, surly these things are so much more valuable than waking up every Sunday morning feeling like absolute death. 

You have the power to make a decision about what you do differently tomorrow, break bad routine now and build a better one for yourself and yourself only, do it so that your quality of life is as good as it can be. At the end of the day it is your life and you will do as you wish.  Your body is a temple, it is such an astonishingly flawlessly designed machine, don’t ruin it by making it toxic.  

Look in the mirror and check in with yourself rite now.