Devil Woman.

My worst nightmare just came into my bedroom first thing in the morning to ask me a question, she is my mums friend and I despise her, always have and I am optimistic that I always will. 

Silence.

His sudden silence made me consider he had killed himself.  I do not always naturally think about death but I do believe he is a kind of person that would commit suicide all in good time. And since the last suicide I experienced, I instantly think of death when there is sudden silence.  He is alive for now and life continues to go on. 

Freak Out.

I blame it on the drugs.

Tangled.

 I love untangling things such as wires. But when I am in a rush, nothing annoys me more than having to untangle something, as detangling takes time, and when you have no time untangling things such as wires can be very frustrating.

Achievement.

Are you proud of yourself? 

Bipolar.

We had a conversation during work hours, I spoke to her the way I would anybody. I asked her questions and she replied with answers. I made no opinion of her, I did not judge her, I simply listened to what she had to say. After conversing for a while she left to go back to doing what she was supposed to be doing. I learnt that she was Hungarian amongst other things. Later in the day I asked the same girl a question, she practically bit my head off with her response. She began to yell at me, I couldn’t see what I had done wrong in order for her to yell at me in such a way. She told me to go away, just to annoy her I stayed, as I couldn’t believe the way she had just snapped at me, from this fairly sweet and lovelyish girl I met earlier she had transformed into an ugly monster. After a while I got bored of watching her grow even angrier with me and so I walked away. Later on I explained to somebody what the girl did as I could not see what I had done wrong in order to make her act in such a way; The person I told said they were not surprised as that is how she is as a person, one minuet she’s hot the next she’s cold, she’s very unpredictable. I didn’t know this about her; I merely felt it from her first hand.  

Naked.

In order to feel truly happy in your clothes, you must feel truly happy out of your clothes. 

January.

I wont let this January get to me the way I let it last year. January last year was a dark time for me; I cared about nothing and wanted nothing more than to not exist.  Living in the basement of my house didn’t help; it was nothing but darkness and that didn’t exactly help me lighten up. Eventually the cruel month past, I came out of hibernation, my smile retuned and I remembered why I liked living.  A year has passed now and I am stronger inside, I don’t let myself get so defeated by things which are beyond my control, instead I continue to try to better myself as a person and I endlessly try and learn new things so that I can grow as a person. I’m doing my best to do all the things I want to do rather than thinking about all the things I want to do. I have never made a new years resolution before but this year I felt the need. All I can say is so far so good, I’m doing well and I am happy. 

Lazy Humans.

Laziness will get you nowhere fast. 

The Norm.

Normal is overrated. 

Masked Rider.

Today I went for an epic bike ride to Camden. I chose Camden as I was feeling rather inspired, I stayed up most of the night planning a film I want to make. I thought I would go to the costume shop in Camden and get some bits in preparation for the film to make me more motivated to pull my finger out and make it happen. 

The sun was shining but it was freezing outside. My hood was up, my black balaclava was covering my nose and mouth, my sunglasses were covering my eyes, and my headphones were on my ears doing what they do best, blaring music.

Riding so fast I rapidly became thirsty, to my disappointment I quickly learnt that I had left my water bottle by the front door at home; it must have happened when I put my bike cleats on in preparation for my ride. I told myself I was not aloud to stop to get water and that I could have a drink when I had reached Camden. After an intensely enjoyable bike ride I reached Camden. The first thing I did was go in to the bike shop, buy a camel pack and then go to a coffee shop to fill it up with water and like a thirsty elephant I drank almost all of the water.  I got everything I had intended to get from the costume shop thus my trip was a success. I wandered around for a little bit, I took spare shoes, as I knew I would want to wander around and I cannot walk properly in my bike shoes as they have studs on the bottom. Eventually I rode home, darkness was among me by this time, I do love the dark. I weaved in and out of cars, I probably made them feel like they nearly killed me but I long for that feeling it gives me a rush.  After a long ride up and down hills, in and out of cars and through red lights I arrived home.  I began to wind down.  

Strangers in Pictures.

I wonder how many strangers have a photograph that has me in it; I think this because I have so many strangers in my photographs. 

Imagination Creation.

My Blood.

She constantly provokes me to say things I don’t mean.  She has away of grinding her opinionated words on my brain. I usually end up walking away in order to silence her noise; she always comes after me so that she can have the last word. I always end up asking her to stop talking, shut my door and leave me in peace. 

Scabs.

I like to pick them.

Organizationn Mission.

Today I cleaned out my entire room, I went in every draw, every cupboard, I left no space untouched. It is amazing what you can find when you dig deep into the dark corners of your bedroom.  

Oblivious. Ungrateful.

We take water for granted. Appreciate every drink you drink.

Individuality.

If people didn't do things their own way, then we would all be the same. 

Regretful.

Regret is a wasted emotion; nevertheless you can’t help but feel it from time to time. 

I am a wanderer.